Yesterday I had the urge to burn my life down and start again. I’m talking packing my bags, getting in the car, driving south, and never looking back. I wanted a change of scenery and a new life and I wanted it NOW! Not because I hate my life but because I felt restless and maybe a little bit bored.

But today, I woke up and peacefully journaled and reflected on how cute my little rental home is and that impulse was gone. I’m still me but with drastically different emotional weather. 

I’ve learned through lots of experience not to over attach to my thoughts and emotions and make them mean more than they do. I know from working with hundreds of clients over the years what emotional patterning looks like and how 80% of it is just a sign of something shedding from our energy system. It’s like your body is experiencing a system update and at first it can create all sorts of internal wonkiness. This is especially true when you’re working with energy medicine like homeopathy or flower essences, as I do. 

I knew that the impulse for change was coming from a few different things:

1. I was experimenting with a couple new homeopathic remedies and they were in high potencies (= STRONG energetic shifts).

2. I knew it was eclipse season + that a potent conjunction was happening yesterday between Saturn & Neptune that could shake things up

3. I simply journaled it down, not ignoring it, but watching the impulse with curiosity.

I think we can experience a lot of pain from over attaching to our every thought and emotion. Just like your liver is currently humming along performing over 300 functions to keep your body in homeostasis, just like your blood is currently delivering nutrients and oxygen to your tissues, just like your cells are dying and being born, your brain and nervous system is meeting the moment you are in and regulating itself through the joys and stresses of your daily experiences. A lot of words to say - the thoughts and feelings self-regulate if you just let them be. They are simply data that is passing through. Not to be ignored, of course. But to be witnessed with curiosity and tracked overtime.

If I feel a consistent thought or emotion or motivation to change something, then I act upon it. But I also know that my perception is not always reality. I might be temporarily looking through a distorted lens. This can happen when your vital force, or your internal regulating mechanism, is stuck or moving through something.

In my case, earlier in the week I had been moving through old grief and it was coming out in strange ways. I had taken a high potency of Ignatia - one of our most cherished grief remedies in homeopathy - and suddenly I found myself listening to music from artists who had passed on without even realizing it. I found myself grieving one of my old favorite musicians who died of alcoholism. Sometimes our emotions attach to strange and random things as an outlet for regulation.

I had taken the remedy because of old family grief - and that also came up - but when grief was on its way out my body it morphed into that desire for escapism - surely I could simply escape my grief by moving to the sunny state of California?! But just as day becomes night to become day again - and just as the rain ends and the sun peaks behind the clouds - the grief passed too. It’s that old cliche of emotion literally meaning “energy in motion.”

The emotion wants an outlet. Especially if you are a client of mine and we are working through old energy patterns and trauma or are on your own homeopathy journey - an outlet is hugely helpful. For me, it’s been playing guitar and writing. Something hands on and tangible to get you out of your head. But remember most of all that your body is self-regulating. You’re watching the body process something it’s ready to let go of in real time. Sometimes you’ll get to watch this happen in your dreams.

So many times I will give a client a remedy and they have some sort of healing or resolution about what we talked about in their dream. It’s because the remedy helps you to integrate the energy instead of it remaining stuck and unprocessed. I’ll often find myself saying “it wasn’t you - it was just your state.” Something passing through.

I know many of us are struggling emotionally these days for so many reasons. It’s tough out there. I hope this article gave you some comfort and hope that you can weather the storm. And if you need support - homeopathy can help tremendously for stuck emotions. Even blends like Freedom Flower’s Crisis Care can help the body process the intensity of the moment and come back to center more quickly.

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